Wednesday, December 28, 2011

February 2, 2011--lyrics...

(Words and Music: Emily Saliers)

There's a letter on the desktop that I dug out of a drawer
The last truce we ever came to from our adolescent war
And I start to feel the fever of the warm air through the screen
You come regular like seasons shadowing my dreams

The Mississippi's mighty, but it starts in Minnesota
At a place where you can walk across with five steps down
And that's just how you started like a pinprick to my heart
But at this point you rush right through me and I start to drown

There's not enough room in this world for my pain
Signals crossed and love gets lost and time passed makes it plain
Of all my demon spirits I need you the most
I'm in love with your ghost
I'm in love with your ghost

Dark and dangerous like a secret it gets whispered in a hush (don't tell a soul)
And when I wake the things I dreamt about you last night make me blush (don't
tell a soul)
When you kiss me like a lover and you sting me like a viper
I go follow to the river play your memory like the piper

And I feel it like a sickness how this love is killing me
But I would walk into the fingers of your fire willingly
Dance the edge of sanity I've never been this close
In love with your ghost

Unknowing captor you'll never know how much you
Pierce my spirit but I can't touch you
Can you hear it, a cry to be free
Oh I'm forever under lock and key
As you pass through me

Now I see your face before me, I would launch a thousand ships
To bring your heart back to my island as the sand beneath me slips
I burn up in your presence and I know now how it feels
To be weakened like Achilles with you always at my heels

This bitter pill to swallow is the silence that I keep
It poisons me I can't swim free the river is too deep
Though I'm baptized by your touch I am no worse at most
In love with your ghost

In love with your ghost
In love with your ghost
You are shadowing my dreams

i've been listening to it on repeat since this morning. every time, i have to hold back tears at the bridge. "unknowing captor, you'll never know how much you pierce my spirit, but I can't touch you." i mean, wow. that just about sums this whole shit storm up.

never heard anything from her after my text. i don't know what that means. i guess i'll find out.

i'm so stuck on the song that i even posted a link to it in my fb status, i'm feeling so compelled to share with everyone i know and love (esp. 10.0) where my mind's at tonight...even though hubby will see it, and will maybe realize that i'm not thinking about him...but i'm not.

sad. true.

1 comment:

  1. Oh yeah, many a traumatizing time was spent in the company of this song and so many others. What would we do withouth music to soundtrack these times in life.